Voices and the eye beyond our vision

Just recently I have been attending weekly meditation classes every Thursday evening. We are a group of about 8 people all with different walks of life. What I am about to discuss further has led me to my life's purpose which wasn't anything close to what I thought I had in mind.

Working in one of the biggest international companies in the world and focusing on what it was that I wanted was all about to change. A change that I never thought in my wildest dreams would ever come to life.

It started nine years ago, loosing five mediate family members on two different dates both only two months apart from one another, the first being my grandmother on my mother's side and later my mother's brother, his wife and two of their four children who passed away in a motor vehicle accident.

I had taken these deaths very hard as I saw my uncle as a fatherly figure and my gran a motherly figure to my brother and I.

My parents are both successful business careered people and still to this day I believe and in my opinion, both have never had the quality to sit and spend time with what should have been a blessing or a gift of life, a family. Never the less it is a lesson my family has to accomplish and to gain from.

I recently learned that we all choose the family we are to be born in, so that we can learn from or teach our loved ones who and what we really are. It is here that we open ourselves to the endless possibilities to what will lie ahead of our paths, built block by block for us before we adventure into the big world. It is these blocks that have to be put together ever so carefully to ensure a life can be lived to its fullest, so I give my fortuity to all mom's and dad's out there, as raising a child can be a long life's lesson.

It was around this time, the time of my family's tragedy, when I fell into deep depression, heart ache and severe suicidal dips. I lost over 54% of my body weight that year losing all drive, ambition and hope, I became a person I never want to be or experience in this life again, I was slowly killing myself as I felt completely empty inside, I was a prisoner trapped between two door ways leading to no where.

With in a year of the deaths, my soul, my spirit and my mind experienced something beyond our vision, something beyond our physical existence, a life force so real that I thought I was dreaming.

It was a week going on a year before the anniversary of my family's tragedy, I lay down on my bed to rest for a while as my weak body was loosing energy much quicker during the day than what it use to, my family doctors were convinced that I had only weeks to live, I was diagnosed with having anorexia and chronic depression.

As I closed my eyes, I can remember calling out to my deceased gran, questioning her, asking her to help me gain back control of my lfe again and to lift my illness off me.

Within in five minutes I could feel my body drifting off to what I thought was sleep. My body's inner life force was pulling up and out, down and in, I still struggle today to describe this feeling. With my eyes shut I could see patterns of coloured light shifting left to right and twirling in to all shapes and sizes, this sent me a feeling of love, peace, and calmness, these colours were to prepare me for what I was about to see next as this energy soothed calmness throughout my entire body.

I saw a man dressed in a dark chocolate brown coloured robe, he has a thick golden coloured rope running on the seines of his robe's hood which he never wears over his head, it lies behind him resting on his upper back. I could see another golden coloured rope wrapped around his waist that ended in a knot in front of him. He looks middle aged, bald and slightly plumpish. Without a word spoken to me he raised his right hand and pointed to the left of me. I later learned that he was my life long guide named Anthony who is a monk.

I turned to see what he was pointing at, and far in the distance I could see a female figure pushing a pram with a younger figure walking alongside of her. They were heading towards me.

With each step closer and closer I could reveal the details becoming clearer and clearer in my mind's eye, without hesitation I realized it was my deceased aunt and my two cousins, who at that time were six and four. My six year old cousin was standing next to my aunt and my four year old cousin, even though she could walk, was sitting in the pram my aunt was pushing.

My aunt turned to me and said, we are all doing well and have been very busy!. She went on to say that my two cousins are attending classes learning more than ever. She said that I have nothing to worry about and told me that my gran has been learning and reading in the spiritual library (which I have been taken to recently accompanied with my gran two years ago, and found that it is a library that exists with a life force of knowledge, even the Angels are seen to be resourcing the library with abundance of scripted knowledge).

The message my aunt told me was to prepare me for life, she told me that from that day on, all that I will think I will be perusing for in this material world will change for me, and the longer I fight against it, the stronger my guides will throw it at me.

This is exactly what happened. Throughout the past nine years, which back then was my first year out of high school, I grew stronger in health and was given many hills to climb in the fields I chose to pursue a career in, such as architecture, financial accounting, IT or human resources. As I would begin to study the one field, there would be many complications. Either the university accidentally assigned me to a field of study I had no interest in like agricultural, or there would be personal problem like money issues, where the money I transferred into the institutions account wouldn’t exist. Eventually after changing studies after studies, I somehow bounced into working for an international company where I had no degree to my name. I rooted a career in information technology there.

Two years went by and I finally told my guides that I could do it even though this wasn’t what they wanted me to do. That was a Friday a couple of months back. That weekend I moved house with my partner where we spent most of it cleaning and reorganizing the furniture. I was pretty excited to live a materialistic dream.

The following Monday I rocked up for work very early, it was around 6am. I met my work colleague at 6:30am at the copier machine where I picked up a stack of papers to move them, I somehow twisted my pelvis and broke my back in three places. I was in so much pain I passed out.

I woke up a couple of hours later in hospital with drips connected to my arms and braces around my neck, there were doctors and nurses talking over me when I heard my guide say, “To value your gift, you must embrace it”, “choose not to and the universe will forcefully stop you”. This was the biggest wake up sign, to date, I have received.

After loosing months at work due to recovery from my operation, the company decided to close my department I was working in down, to cut back on expenses. This had nothing to do with my absence as they had a temporary replacement filling in for me untill I was well enough to attend work again. There were 11 of us lost our jobs.

I have seen and received many messages from Angels, walking guides and passed over spirits who either show their presence and/or talk to me. Most often my aunt, my cousins, who are much older now in spirit, gran and occasionally my uncle visit me to remind me my life’s purpose and what it is I am meant to do on this earth, with the support of my life guide, Anthony.

Attending meditation classes helps me focus on my messages I have for people. I recently have given hope, restored love and happiness to many in these classes.

If using my gift is to help people in many ways then I am fore filled, as I am truly thankful to my deceased family and to guides for showing me the difference that life can be.

Remember that things are suppose to happen for a reason, acknowledge it and take the necessary action, because over riding it or ignoring it will only make it more difficult for you.

Anthony.